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tears form behind my eyes but i do not cry

bored -_-..mum is nagging about me getting a job hah..cuz i've been taking lots of money from her..haha..aiyah patient laa...

and..yesterday i cut up some photos..i felt it pretty pointless keeping them..i no longer harbour the thought of us being harmonised again so yeah..and i realised that nothing really ever stays with u forever..there are different chapters of life and diff chapters comes diff characters..so yeah...its all about acceptance and i think i clearly have already accepted everything that has happen..shit happens sometimes you know? though all this has made me sad and morale being sucked and all..i know all that happen for a reason and somehow i know i have a part to play as well..but all this has made me on guard..callous and paranoid..i just dun wan anybody to ever walk out of my life..yeah..im tired already..

oh yeah and gayle got in top 12..yc was urging me to vote for her..hahaha i voted once for her..but shes not my ultimate favourite in SI anyway...her singings good though..and shes cute..hahah whatever..thank god geraldine din go in top 12 dun really like..i kinda like meryl actually but i think shes not a very nice person cuz she doesn't seem popular amongst the other idols..since that geraldine din hug her and jay din high-five her..but both of them feign ignorance..so fake can see so look like they deliberately do that..but i still think meryl should be in but shes sucha perfectionist that i guess she couldnt handle all that stress..dumb!.got chance den choose to drop out..waste other people's chances!!ah enough!..anywae i think geraldine's parents looks kinda funny i dunno..they look very old leh..hahahahaha oooppss...hahahhha

anyway mich is coming back soon ..on 5 july!..haha..then we all can go prata together go drinking and stuff..yeah haha..

i wanna upload some photos but its all in my laptop..another huh ok..ahaha nothing much to say already..haha

oh ya im meeting my gf isabella tml haha..and she told me tml match is ARGENTINA AND GERMANY..its gonna be intense man and im sure macs will be crowded..this is hard man..argentina and germany is both quite good man..both stand good chance haha..dunno la not interested..aiyah finals hurry come la..i wanna bet also hahahaha...BRAZIL ALL THE WAYYYYYY!!!

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stupid people..!!!!

urgh...hate mens hate mens...urgh

hah..anyway i just have to say this..i dun like paris hilton!!..after hearing her stars are blind song..i was damn (i dunno wats that feeling haha)..well..i actually mistook her for gwen stefani!! how can?..being compared to gwen stefani..shes way way cooler..tsk..i dunno if thats even a compliment or an insult to her..well..from the starting..i already thought she wasn't especially pretty or anything..but shes like want to do it all..she even has a book..tsk..and isabella told me her stars are blind mtv showed her by the beach acting like a bimbo..haha isabella shares the same sentiments as me!..dun like paris hilton la!!..ok why am i even talking about her..

what about me?..still haven found a freaking job..still having a boring life...still dunno wat to do..urgh i hate myself sometimes!..

anyway..i got off the phone with isabella just now..she told me all that story about her bf...tell me why do such STUPID PPLE still exist?..no offence la..

a msg to her bf (though he will never read this but whatever)
You played the game and got yourself trapped so..you have to bear the consequences..and accept it for what it is..i got not much to say except your so dumb..though maybe im in no position to judge but its all in the defence of my dearest friend isabella..feel so betrayed for her and so injustice..so whatever.. yeah good luck to your next unlucky gf..

don't be mistaken..isabella didn't get cheated on by her bf..but for some reasons..i think its stupid..its like if you want to test whether the water is hot and instead you soak your hand in and get scalded instead..so tell me is that the right to test the waters?stupid stupid..that explains why.men are so dumb sometimes..hah k enuff

and i must add...without trust..there is nothing ok..really nothing..and that mistake is done and the sparks has already flown so..its hard to get another second chances..some chances only come once..yeah

urgh..anyway met up with isabella on sat went town ..town is boring laaa..yeah and isabella was telling me bout her problems and stuff la..and i said something spot on and she was commenting on how well i know her..i felt happy that at least but at the same time..i dunno..it kinda scares me and im beginning to feel paranoid already..im just afraid one day..what if i couldn't tell what she was thinkin anymore..this may sound so loser-ish or something..but im just afraid of losing friends again..ever since (hmmn-hmmn)- i swear i wouldn't blog about her anymore..im sick of friends walking outta my life..though friends come and go..im sure there are a couple who would stay around right?..yeah..

this just inspired me to talk bout my friendship with isabella..though im really scared if after saying all that im about to say..i'll jinx something..im getting really paranoid man..haiyoh reena what happen to you?..ok back to isabella..met her at school at Ite..yes at Ite the least expected place i would have expected to make some real friends...i remembered it was like the first few days of school..and i saw this curly-haired girl..she was like commenting loudly on how 'shuai'-read "handsome" some guys was..coming from a girls school..im not really use to this kinda things..so i just thought to myself.."eee..what a boy crazy girl"..and because she was like mixing around with the guys in my class and it seemed to me she wasn't really interested in talking to girls..haha...and so..i din really took notice of her..until all that bjg group form and somehow we became a clique in school..and isabella actually told me that she also din quite like me cause i was very 'dao'..and i looked very arrogant..hahahahaha...well thats me..im diff if u know me well ok..hah yeah so from then on i started to know more bout isabella..she's like those your really girlfriend girlfriend type of friend..get what i mean?..argh nvm..cause probably shes straight thats why she somehow is diff cuz all my other girl-friends are lesbians so its just diff..being the person i am..im not those who open easily and im not those pple who can just click and feel close to someone..i mean i can be really friendly but that doesn't im really comfortable with you..but isabella's diff..theres not a moment i felt akward with her like how i did with pple i just know..its just funny cuz i think me and isabella know each other..till this date about a year and 8 days hahaha..i mean during this short period of time..to me..shes no longer a new friend or whoever..seems to me its like i already knew her for a long time..i share with her all my secrets and stuff tell her many many thing..vice-versa..so yeah

and i just realise the other day..that probably we can click really well its cuz we are both of the same horoscope ( i believe in horoscopes)..we are both aquarius..hahaha..because who she is and what she thinks may just be what i also feel..so yeah..i know that is such a baseless way to prove how sometimes we think alike but still!..astrology is still believable ok..haha..and i must add another thing is im glad isabella is such a sociable person and im so glad she gets along with yc..hardcore..pheebs they all..i like it when everybody gets along :))haha

well anyway..i wanna say is...sometimes im really scared of whats gonna happen in the future i mean..the above things i have mentioned above sounds really blissful and stuff but im still paranoid..i just hate people walking out of my life!!!..tsk..so i pray really hard things will always be the same..sigh..
just the other day while cleaning my room, i chanced upon this photo album of me and some pple at the beach..i was telling yc about it today..and i told her..when i saw the album i felt quite sad cuz when the pictures were taken we all looked so happy together..but look at us today...what happen to all of us?...yc just said.."well people change"..i agree though..pple change from time to time even myself..but the thing is im sure in life there are friends who are keepers so im just wondering if is it at diff staged of life..you have different friends..im not someone who welcomes every change ok..sigh..

shan't talk about all this unhappy stuff anymore..im bloggin alot today huh?..maybe because i have done so in bout 1 week plus already..haha..and yeah..i hope i find a job soon..and i hope isabella solves her problems and also yc to find a job herself hahaha..so yeah..actually i still got lots of things on my mind to say but till next time i guess..wanna sleep already..so bye

AND ANYWAY...I WAN BRAZIL TO BE IN THE FINALS..dunno y but im not a big fan of soccer but all this World cup madness has taken a toll on everyone..i talk about soccer sometimes..thats weird..even hardcore who think 22 pple chasing after one ball is stupid is now commenting about how exciting the game can be..hahaha scary huh?? WORLD CUP FEVER LA..hahahaha..but whatever i still like brazil though isabella says Argentina stands a really good chance and i think so does Germany being the country to host the world cup event..of cause will perform well la...k enuff said!..whats wrong with me?..oh yeah (shit i can't stop talking) i wanna see shakira perform the hips don't lie song (world cup version) on the WC finals..so might be heading to some pub with isabella and everybody else who wans to join us..hahaha ok enuf

BYEEEEEE

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so familiar?

Yesterday after 54893474743 years..i finally met up with my dearest qian..haha..missed her damn alot..wenta bugis together with nicole..qian still looks the same but sporting a diff haircut though..but she still looks pretty..but everything is still the same..its still same old qian...still as crappy and full of nonsense..who would just make u laugh non-stop..i had a kick at laughing at her cuz her actions are just so funny man..at the same, i felt a sense of happiness as i still have her as my friend..awww...:)..met up with aizhen too..missed her alot too..qian and nicole hadta leave so it was just me and aizhen..just sat down and talk..she had to left for work so i left too..drop by isabella's shop and chat a lil while and headed home..

there me and qiannnyyyy

hahaa.. :)

yest..i heard a very very saddening news about something..i just felt..urgh..how could this ever happen...and i was wondering all the time how u were feeling and stuff..but u were just in front of me but i couldn't open my mouth to even ask about it..i was just afraid u wouldn't wan to talk about it so i chose to keep quiet...sigh..its so surreal..i can't even believe its real..does life always come up to this point?..why do things happen after another..i hate seeing pple sad moreover they are the dearest to me..i just hope u'll be strong..if u need anything..plz tell me..i truly feel for u..i hope things turn out alright for u...love ya friend :(

so many things happen..where was i?..even if i was there..wat could i have done?

sigh..lets put aside unhappy things yeah..finally im recovering from my illness haha..been sick for 5 days already and for the record...i din smoke for 4 days!! haha well nothing else shall end here..bye :)

stop invading into my private life..

You're all I ever wanted ;

sigh

in the past i rarely get sick but now its like once a month..last month i was down with fever and asthma..and now im down with fever (38.9 degrees) and asthma..went to the docs today..had to receive that oxygen treatment cuz my asthma was really bad..this time i was even sicker than i was last month and somehow im begininng to have second thought about jeopardising my own health via smoking..everytime i make a mental note to reduce smoking but i can't knowing that it will make my asthma worst and worst to the extend the doc had to give me a stronger dose of inhalers to prevent asthma and it scares me somehow cuz actually a few years ago i saw this classmate of mine using the same inhaler as i got..her asthma is like worst worst den mine..like anytime can relapse that kind of thing..i dun wanna be like that :(..so how..its freaking hard to quit smoking man..and its no use complaining about it without doing anything...so i guess i've left no other options except to reduce smoking and maybe one day i'll quit ..dunno if i can do it..i'll try i'll try..sigh..

I HATE BEING SICK LAA..BETTER OFF DEAD

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shag -_-

it was yc's birthday on saturday 10 june...happy birthday!!!.love ya dude..yeah hah and we had a chalet from friday to sunday...i enjoyed well at least its better than last years december chalet..that was such a bitter moment..this time round..no more fights and should i say no more drunkards?..no! apparently history has repeat itself..thank god it happen on the last night..or else i think everybody will fall apart..u! urgh..last year when u puking all over the floor and making a nuisance out of yourself..i din say anything..but this time round..had enough..can't stand it anymore..u are just making everybody unhappy..!from last year till now..oh enough already all ur sad love stories are not new anymore..your friends may console u in any way and try to pamper you and make u better in any way but hell be considerate im sure ur friends are tired also..give them a break..

yeah we shared money and bought yc her favourite durian cake..$60 bucks..a bit steep but who cares..for a friend..theres no need to talk bout money..well thank god she din get a slice of cake (my!..there goes me again) though hahahahah...bbq-ued den played drinking games..got trapped a few times..dranked quite a lot i think....after that just stoned there..dunno why..some of them went to red house i think hoping to catch a glimpse of the ghost..haha but they din see anything..continued drinking with yc they all..evonned puked..haha fara was freaking high..kept laughing like nobodys business..siew hwee was freaking red..yc was also drunk at the end of night..shes so funny when shes drunk haha..the few of us went downstairs to bbq the rest of the food..had fun downstairs cuz yc's classmate..this girl call effa..i think shes funny and when we were having fun and all..we were interupted by a very uhappy news..cuz yc's afraid that we'll get angry and start blaming her cuz of this drunkard who apparently can't wake up her idea and suggested that we immediately checked out..i was fuming mad when i heard this..cuz its not yc and the others busines..why must they check out cuz of her?..no worry im not as impulsive as last year when i blamed yc out of anger..hahaha..so me and hardcore went up...screamed at her and told her to leave..wat a pathetic state..our mood immediately got spoiled cuz of her cuz i guess some of us are reminded of that bitter moment last year..urgh..well enough of her..

Well all in all..i think i enjoyed myself..at least i felt quite happy throughout the chalet..nothing beats having friends around..love them all.. :)) next year again i guess hahaa..

urgh have not been sleeping well for the past 2 days..went home this morning and slept till 5..boring boring boring..hah..anyway met up with azyan and isabella..felt so happy to see them haha..they are both still the same..love them too hahaha..

hmmmn..shall end here..till then..bye :)

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whew~ didn't update for a freaking long time man...not that im busy though..damn lazy la hahaha...

i know all this is abit late la..but on the 25th may..it was my hardcore's birthday..haha bought her sunflowers..hah how nice of me..hahaha :).. and bought a chocolate cake shared by isabella and qian zi..whew hardcore!..(thank god u din get a slice of cake man) hahaha oops sorry..(bitchy me again)...well so anyway we wenta dine at fish & co..had fish and chips..er not much comment on the food la..its not VERY nice cuz after several mouthful of fish..i reckon u will feel like puking feel so u noe like choked up...and damn its expensive man..i think i rather prefer swensens..more varieties i guess hahaha...yeah so..i guess thats a simple celebration for hardcore but yet quite a happy one..ahahaha

yeah so anyway actually on the 1 june was suppose to be my graduation day..i din attend cuz i felt lazy..din wanna dress up and all..haha..but it aint sucha big event after all..ite only..tsk tsk.haha..so am now looking for a job still..putting my studies on hold for a while..the studying doesn't ends here alright..got my plans..hmmn..shall see...haha..

its june now..about half the year already..so fast!...why? why do time pass so fast and in about 7-8 months i'll be twenty..can u imagine?..im now 2 decades old..how can?...hahahhaa..

urgh lets not talk about unhappy stuff..anyway coming 10 june..its YC birthday and chalet!!!..yeah!!!..love chalets..hahaha haven been to one for quite some time..hahaha..yeah!!..but of cuz this time it will not as bad as the last time..

well thats bout it..time check: its 6.30 am in the morning..yes i have been sleeping this late nearly everyday!..oh ya one more thing..hardcore lent me the devil beside u vcd..and hell he jun xiang is damn cute la wa lao..but hell dun be mistaken im not some idol-crazed fan..but he's damn cute la!..haahah enough sleep time toodles!!!!

all that shadows have gone..its definately sunshine after rain..go kiss ass la!

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